Why am I so tempted
To leave and never come back?
To run until my lungs hurt
And even then keep running 'til I collapse?
No wrongs have been dealt to me
So why do I feel so forlorn?
Why has this desire overcome me
Why do I want so badly to leave?
I have all that I could ask for, and even more.
Everything except those words,
That I will never hear you say.
But that I am content without.
Why do I want to disappear --
To vanish without a trace?
There are those who I'd dearly miss
And longings I can't erase.
Yet even then my heart is begging
Even then my feet are pleading.
"Run," they tell me, "and don't look back."
But I fear it's something that I would regret.
I am bound by friendship,
By duty and loyalty.
Yet secretly I wish
To cast off those chains.
Why do I wish
To flee from this place
In a moment of reckless abandon --
A ghost without a face?
Why are my lungs fighting for air
Why can I barely breathe?
I am drowning,
Drowning in my desire to escape.
For sometimes I feel
That I do not belong.
Yet despite that, I will stay
Though my lingering may not be long.